My Crossroad

"I have a dream....a song to sing....to help me cope in anything....

If you see the wonder of a fairytale...you can take the FUTURE even if you FAIL...."

What is my future...or should I say where is my future? These are the questions that had been bothering me for this past week. I don't know, maybe because a year had passed after I graduated and left my university. Or maybe because my mom keeps on nagging me on having a professional life like a real teacher....(not just a tutor).

I have a good job, I admit. My salary is okay, I'm enjoying it...but still...something's missing. It's like I'm being confined in a world of dream...away from reality. 

Looking back, on those young years I had. The barbaric me, clumsy me, proud me....and me..the dreamer, I realized how much I changed. I changed on my ways and views in life and also my dreams. I always wanted to be a writer. My greatest dream is either to see my name on a byline of a newspaper or book...or to be seen on TV every night on my own show while giving the latest news nationally. Wow! Realizing it from now, I had a high dream. 

Now, I've reached the point where I just dreamed before. I'm on my own now. I'm earning for my self and also to help my parents. But why am I still searching for something. I did not achieve my dreams but I have a good job now. Do I really have to continue searching and achieving? Or just stop and just let life passed by. 

I am facing a crossroad now and both roads look appealing. I should be careful because these are my life's roads. My decision will determine the next phase of my life. So what can I say? May God be with me.....